|Naked Time! |
Alternatively to all non-furries: Sorry for burning your eyes and branding your brains with an image you prolly didn't want to see.
I'll still leave it right up here to burn more retinas, though.
Hello, I’m Adrian. I'm 21 years old, live in germany and am currently jobless. I first started drawing roughly 7 years ago, and have been neglecting it for the past 2.
I want to be an artist.
Alright. I’m not sure how many of the people that have been watching me before are still left. Probably not a whole lot, which I can fully understand. For those who still do, I feel like I should explain what happened.
A few things in my private life have been going wrong. I will not go into complete detail here, since I want to stop tossing my private life into these journals. What happened was that a couple big events in my life went wrong at the same time, which caused a few other things to go down the drain with them, one of which being my mind. It took me a few months until I felt like I was able to bother with anything again, and even then I lacked the energy required to do many of the things I should’ve done and enjoyed doing. Drawing was one of those things. For the past two years I’ve been trying to repair the damage I’ve done to my own life, which is a process that likely won’t be done for another long while. However, for the first time since my crash, I feel like I am able to properly sit down and slowly get back into the groove again. Now, all of that –is- allegedly personal stuff, but I felt like I needed to let whoever is still around know what the hell happened. Apart from that, those are my own problems, personal stuff, no biggie.
What is a biggie is how this has affected my online presence as an artist, and a member of this community in general. And I want to apologize for that. I've been neglecting both my art, and a few people online and in real life that I shouldn't have as a result of this phase, which is not okay. I want to apologize to anyone who was expecting to see art on here, especially to Redswift, who is still waiting on a few commissions from me, which I will see to complete as soon as possible. The pictures have been worked on on and off over the time I've been inactive, but I have yet to complete all of them. That behaviour was very unprofessional of me, and there is no excuse for that. I just want to let you, and her know that this wasn't out of ire, or disrespect, or flat out a lack of care. I was feeling very sick just picking up a pencil for the vast majority of time now, which ties in with the aforementioned RL problems. I shouldn't have been neglecting my art, or even people for that matter, because of this, and I will carry the full responsibility. If anyone wishes to think lesser of me for this, or un-watch me, or simply not bother with me as an artist or person anymore, I understand that.
What’s going to happen next is that I will try to finish the remaining 4 commissioned pictures in a pace that will allow me to make sure the pictures get up to the best level of quality I can currently deliver. There are a few more things I would like to say here, but for now I want to focus on repairing damage first before I start making any promises.